Yeah! I passed 90 days over the weekend.
At the beginning of this “assignment,” I was really looking forward to day 90 and day 180 to see what kind of progress I had made.
Both articles and friends (and my wife, who went through this five years ago) stated that it would take me at least six months to grieve the loss of my job, and then feel rested enough to start doing something new. Well, so far, those prognosticators are all right. I have done a few things, but really, the emphasis is on “few.” For some reason, I thought that I would do better than average. Turns out, I am very average. At least I am beginning to think about starting something (several things, actually) to gain some momentum, but I have yet to pull the trigger on anything. There is still hope for me and my future, but only if I actually start something soon. That’s been my problem so far. I have found all kinds of “useful” things to do that have kept me from starting anything substantial. I have been procrastinating.
That ends today.
Enough wallowing, enough of getting side-tracked; I’m going to find some things to do and I’m going to start doing them. In about a year and a half, I’m going to need an income, so I have to start building things now that might generate a profit!
It’s also obvious to me that at this point, I should have already done any solo traveling I was intending to do. I can’t afford to do that now; I’m busy. I will travel with my family this summer, so it’s not like I’m skipping travel all together. After the summer is over, if I’m not still consumed with work (and wouldn’t that be nice!), and I feel I still have the money to spend, and I have updated my passport, then I’ll think about that solo trip. From April through August, I believe my plans are mostly set.
Day 93 mood: I feel like starting something! (BTW, I just finished the book, Poke the Box by Seth Godin today. The book is a manifesto about “starting” things. I feel so empowered right now!)